Saturday, July 19, 2014

What I am afraid of......

I am afraid of being vulnerable.
I am afraid that if I start something with you beyond where we are, I will never want to stop.
I am afraid that once it goes that far that I cannot take it back.
I am afraid of being naked in front of you.
I am afraid of unrealistic expectation that would eventually turn into a hell all of its own.
I am afraid of knowing what I do not know.
I am afraid of turning fantasy into a reality and then when it ends I will know what I am missing.  As long as it is just fantasy I really don't know exactly "what" I am missing, only that I a missing "something."
I am afraid of being a disappointment to you, not meeting your expectations.
I am afraid that underneath all of "this" there is a real person with real feelings and insecurities.
I am afraid of the guilt.

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Gone out of reach....Humph!

So I am really bothered by the fact that my phone a friend/ potential Master is off on vacation and "out of cell service".  So I asked for a task to help me feel "connected" and prevent me from getting "weirdly insecure."  I know, I know I am sounding stupid, we have no commitment to each other but we do have some sort of contact most every day.  Chatting about various things, some smut some just plain ole daily happenings.
His response was the following:
  "Each day you will take a picture in your panties and each day you will include more of your body in the photo.  Also each day you will tell me a reason why you deserve 10 extra hand spanks."
My response: Thank you!
My text this morning: I deserve 10 extra hand spanks because I deleted ten other pictures before settling on this one.

Friday, July 4, 2014

Independence Day Surprise!

Just when I think things are going stale in the bedroom HB comes out with all kinds of Kinky Fuckery this morning.  I woke up to being tied, spanked, kissed, flogged, left, and then fucked.  When it was over he let freedom ring!  Happy 4th of July!

Tuesday, July 1, 2014


For some reason my pictures in all of my posts, disappeared.
I have attempted to restore them but in some cases could not remember or find the picture I originally used.  Too weird.